“Untitled” ( first name – “Refreshing for Love.Rose for you.”)
Technical comment: First of all I have idea to paint selfportrait with a sky as a background. But the idea that to paint me in the mirror and to have a sky on the background and real sky. So for that I changed position of my big mirror and opened window as much as I could. Though bad thing I lived in the first flour in that time, and we had a lot of small trees next to the window. And well I could see sky, but bad thing in the room was dark. Probably I must to put more reflexes to my face. So in my opinion this portrait doesn’t have too much good technical background. Cause for me the shadows are too much dark. Though on another hand these shadows add to portrait that mood that it has.
Idea: to paint selfportrait with rose and sky background. And I wanted to try to convey my feelings to canvas. So on one hand I can say I could do it. Though on anothe hand NOT, cause idea was Painting about Love. But there is mre suffering, sadness, than Love. Cause that period when I have begun this work my mood was so discouraged & miserable. While I was considering this idea, my mood was good. I felt Love without Pain in my heart. But then all changed and all these terrible, unpleasant things appeared in my soul, heart and mind.Well the idea/better say reason to paint a rose as an element for this painting, the same as for painting :Chrystal Sphere” was the roses that weirdly appeared in my house during few evening that summer. Anyway till this time I still don’t know send me these roses. My house was full of these roses. And a part of them I conveyedto these 2 paintings. Anyway if “Chrystal Sphere” has magic magnetic weird secret light soft feeling of Love. This Second Painting doesn’t have it.
Why Title was changed – hmm well that is the question. I changed it, ’cause I understood it doesn’t match. Tell me does smb can find anything abt refreshing for love in this Painting? I can’t…