“Self-portrait. Imitation to Durer.”
Really I love the paintings by Albreht Durer. Especially his portraits. But it is a pity about existing of this portrait by Durer I have got to know most later than about oter his works. And as soon as I saw I fell in love with this one and decided to paint my selfportrait in such interpretation. The most funny thing I painted this self-portrait twicely. First I was painting it very quickly. Just a few days and portrait was done. It was very fresh, spring portrait, with pure spring emotions and feelings. But in that time (March of 2004) I was at the 10 level of my school. And at the school’s exams administration of my school also fell in love with this portrait and took it for school collection.
“Two portraits of Durer, pomegranates and I.”
This portrait I began to paint at the March 2004 as soon as finished working with First portrait Imitation to Durer. And first I made this one like sketch, like a very fresh portrait. Then I put this sketch to the wall of my room. I often looked at it. And in summer 2005 I suddenly decided to finish it, to add some architecture and sky(as my mom says my favorite thing sky) to background. While I was chenging it the ideas came to my mind, and I already decided to add pomegranates, and portraits of Durer. When I was in process of finishing this work I had very strange period of my life. I thought I never could paint again at all. I began many works at that time, but many of them I couldn’t finish in that time. Finally I was angry to myself VERY VERY MUCH! And said to myself: “I CAN! AND I’LL DO IT!!!” Anyway I have finished it. But I’m not sure that it is a good work. May be because it is not canvas, it is panel. But most probably because of those memories about that time.
“Self-portrait… It seems to me we have something to tell to each other…”
This is my favorite self-portrait. I love to draw and to paint myself. And after New Year 2006 I wanted to paint the new self-portrait. I don’t know why and how but at once I’ve understood that Venice should to be on the background. In one art magazine I’ve found the reproduction of Canaletto’s painting “Bay of San Marco”. And I used it in this work. I tried to do this work full of my senses. And it seems to me I could to do it. Anyway people pay great attention to this work. Many times when ordered portraits asked me to paint Venice for background, or use a Duke’s palace. Though I was painted this painting for one person, and really I din’t get the positive reaction in the first moment and for a while he made me thing I painted a very terrible portrait. And so I made this portrait hidden in my room for a while. But then I felt that I missed it, I need to see it. Strange feeling but I was wondered how good is this portrait, when I saw it after a long hidden time. And since this time this portrait with me, yeah, twicely I was needed to take it off from the frame, when I twicely was moved. And even few monthes ago, I made a mistake, turned off the refregerator and I was not at the home. And when I came back this portrait was lying at the next room at the flour, so i found it was getting a bathroom. I was so angry at me, and at the next few weeks I ordered the frames for all canvasses i had without frames. But thanks to God portrait is ok.
“Portrait of my mother”
When I looked to the “Portrait of Maria Lopukhina” by Borovikovsky, I always thought that she is my mother. I mean that it is a portrait of my mom. I ws so proud, in my house I have a few books, and art magazines, where is a portrait of my mom. I was a little girl and very often asked my mother: “Is it your portrait?” She always answered “No, no…” In such moments I thoughts:” Why does my mother lie me?” Anyway in the Autumn 2005 I decided “My children’s dreams have to come true!” And I have begun to paint this portrait. In that time I have made a sketch of this work only. I had a long while when I was a bit afraid to come to this painting, I was not sure I could. And in Apr. 2006 I’ve returned to this work. Yeah, this portrait is very resembling to my mother, though my mother didn’t pose to me at all. I have painted it without her and her photos. She says I could do it because I know her very well. I’m completely agreed with her.
Anyway I think it is a good portrait.